I’m so indecisive. I have no clue what’s going on these days. The days pass by with me confused. I often forget what the day is. I guess I’m just one of those people. I might just be going through a state on mental war. And I barely have any allies.
So what’s going on? I don’t know. I guess I’m just getting backstabbed so much now. First by Veronica and Isabel, and now by two more friends. Since my friends will never read this blog since their so caught up in Facebook, I’ll just say it. Now, Natalie is flirting with Freddie. It’s like my own friends hate me. Well, now, the only friends I have at school are Jen and Justin.
I’m just happy it the weekend. I don’t have to see them. It hurts to see them giggling with him, and I always feel like jumping in front of a speeding car, or maybe plunge down into ice cold water. Maybe I could set myself of fire. I’d rather die a fast and numb death rather than a slow and painful one.
Anyways, aside from all the angst-filled stuff, today, I have seen the sun after so long. Today, in New York City, the sun is shining and the temperature is fifty degrees. Unfortunately, I had to spend the late afternoon with Sam. Sam is my tutor, and he’s, well, special. He’s nineteen or twenty and has a band. I don’t like him. I’ve never been able to connect with him. Today he taught me about slopes and called himself a nerd. Cause he is.
Well…I don’t know what else to say. So…farewell, and keep on swaying.
Feeling: Fallen
Listening To: This Providence – This Is the Real Thing
